Tuesday, February 28, 2006

Pop Out

Wondering what the title is about? it's about my eyes.. Cant stop thinking about them for days now..!!

Last night I took an aspirin right before I went to bed.. and my head felt much better this morning.. I was thinking "no more worries for the day" .. but now, it's aching again.. my eyes too... lately have bags under my eyes *I rarely have them!!!* .. and they r dark too!!! hiks..

I think I had enough sleep already.. but why??? too much sleep? I dun think so.. maybe I just watch too much monitor and Desperate Housewives *kinda makes me scared of getting married* hehe.. Anyway.. I can feel my heartbeat in my eyes.. it's just NOT comfortable! yet I feel better if I cover my eyes with my hands.. and pressed them... but then I start to feel them.. feels like my eyes are bigger than before... are they someday gonna pop out? is it possible?

I heard a story once.. forgot who.. maybe it was my friend's friend's sister.. she got minus eyes.. but she ignored it.. and her right eye came out.. or maybe almost came out.. and she got blind now.. definitely I dun want that to happen to me... huaaaaaaaaaa...

Maybe I just think too much.. maybe my eyes just tired from watching the monitor too long.. they are just not used to it... I just hope they will adapt soon.. hiks..

God please dun let that happen to me.. pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeee... :(

Monday, February 27, 2006

Nike Stress??

Eh tadi gw lupa username n password nya nih website loh.. hehe.. *kebanyakan blog sih!!* .. tapi untung sekarang dah bisa masuk n nambahin cerita deh!! *abisnya ada yang protes sih kalo gw tuh jarang update blog gw* :P

Uwah hari ini rasanya gak enak banget... Sejak Jumat kepala gw kleyengan.. gak pusing sih, tapi serasa melayang aja... ini semua gara2 seharian nempel komputer.. dah dari pagi ampe sore kerja di depan monitor.. malemnya malah maen game PangYa!!! Akhirnya, kalo melek serasa melayang, kalo merem serasa muter2... sekarang ini, gw ngeliat HP.. kirim sms or terima telp bawaannya langsung gak enak nih kepala...

Sabtu lalu juga begitu.. jalan2 ama Ie ie ke Plaza Indonesia.. n ngeliat orang2 tuh gw agak blur.. gak bener2 ngeliat mereka.. gak tau ekspresi mereka kayak apa.. yah cuma sekedar liat aja kalo ada orang, tuh orang lagi ngapain, pake baju warna apa.. dll... trus gw pikir mungkin gw kurang olah raga nkali... jadi abis dari PI rencananya mao fitness... eh belakangan batal gara2 kayaknya kalo fitness bisa2 gw malah tambah teler... trus berdua Ie ie, akhirnya creambath.. manjain diri banget kan? Seenggaknya setelah creambath, kepala jadi lebih enakan... n Ie ie bilang itu tuh gejala stress...

Gw stress?? oh yah? mungkin juga.. tapi stress terhadap apa?? emang sih akhir2 ini gw sering mikir "apa yang sebaiknya gw lakuin? keputusan apa yang musti gw ambil? kalo gini, gw bakal nyesel gak yah?" .. yang semuanya cuma masuk di otak n tetep tinggal di sana... gak keluar hasil apa2.. gak ada jawaban sama sekali buat pertanyaan2 gw itu... apa itu yah?

Tadi gw juga ada meeting... n manajer gw itu ngomong apa.. rasanya cuma masuk n keluar lagi.. gak ada yang kecerna ama gw.. rasanya blank..?? ... ngebaca tulisan di papan tulis.. emang tulisannya kecil, but normally I can read it.. and this time? mata nya sampe sakit dipaksa buat ngebaca tuh tulisan.. akhirnya bukannya dengerin omongan manajer, gw malah mikir "apa mata gw minus yah? musti pake kacamata? duh musti minum vitamin buat mata nih.. gw kan gak cocok pake kacamata.." ... n setelah tersadar dari lamunan.. back to earth gitu ceritanya.. gw mulai nyimak lagi isi meeting itu.. tapi?? cuma buat semenit.. mungkin kurang.. n pikiran gw udah entah kemana lagi..

Gw sendiri gak gitu ngerti jalan pikiran gw.. kadang bisa banyak banget pertanyaan yang muncul di otak... n kebanyakan juga pertanyaan gak penting... ngeliat satu orang pun gw bisa mikir "nih orang kok bisa yah kayak gitu? apa yah yang lagi dia pikirin? dia hepi gak hari ini? gw ganggu dia gak yah? dia sebel ama gw gak yah?" ... mungkin gw perlu olahraga yang nenangin pikiran yah.. contohnya apa? orang bilang yoga or meditasi.. tapi.. apa iyah bisa? kayaknya sih.. kalo gw meditasi, otak gw juga gak bakal istirahat.. malah mikir lebih banyak lagi.. or kalo gak mikir lebih banyak.. yah ketiduran hehehe....

Eh ketiduran juga bukan berarti pikiran gw jadi tenang loh!!! soalnya.. yang gw pikirin itu sering banget kebawa ke dalem mimpi... juga.. mimpi2 gw tuh sering banget berupa nightmare.. bayangin aja.. gw sering mimpi tentang pembunuhan, kecelakaan, naga... gw gak perlu film horror lagi deh.. dah jadi langganan alami hehehe...

So now.. what should I do to calm my mind?? oh iyah.. katanya buat orang golongan darah A minum teh chammomile itu bagus buat nenangin pikiran.. mungkin gw bakal nyoba itu malem ini... sepertinya masih ada deh di rumah.. (ngomong2... kepala gw mulai kleyengan lagi nih gara2 baca nih font.. tau gitu sih masih dipake muahahahahahah... *sigh* )

Friday, February 24, 2006

Dunno Why...

Helloooooooooo...!!!
OMG!!! I'm so happy they have Maigandra GD font here hehehe.. I really love this font type, dunno why.. \(^o^)/

And I also dunno why I created a new blog.. since I already got 3 blogs.. the first one is abandoned, the second is half-abandoned, and the third can still be considered new yet not really active...

Now... what will I write here... uhm... I know I should write my almost-always spinning thoughts (it's now spinning.. thinking what to write) ... but oh dang! came up with nothing!!!

Why am I here in the first place? cos I read my hunny's blog and wanna put comments on it.. and I thought "why dun I join it too?" *so just I have a username to put on the comments..* hehehe.. silly isnt it?

I'm sure I'm gonna have something.. lots of things to write soon.. since my mind is kinda uncontrollable and sometimes annoy myself.. it just wanders on its own!!! I write some other time and for now.. I'll just refer you guys to my other blog.. read Yolg!