Over the Weekend

Nyukss!!

on Friday I went to the mall right after work to meet my "brothers" and "sister" :D hehe.. why I typed them in quotes? coz they'r not my real brothers n sister, they r all friends I used to spent time with while I was in Beijing and they r all older than me.. so I call them "koko" (older brothers) and "dajie" (big sister) or "cici" (older sisters).. it felt really good to spend time with them again.. share each other's life and laugh along with them again.. kinda miss those day when we got to spend every day together.. now everyone's so busy and even some of us live in different cities.. hhh.. barriers!! Oh, I bought a box of milk that nite, called Stefit (I think they got the name from 'Stay Fit'), contains vitamin A, B1, B2, B6, B12, C, D, E, Calium, Calcium, Zinc, Iron, and more.. and of course! No Aspartam!! It's kinda weird.. the one I bought was for age 19-40 years old, contains no Aspartam, while I was gonna buy one for my mom.. +40 years old one and it contains Aspartam.. what's the difference? maybe as people getting old, we need more sugar.. but not artificial sugar which ruins the brain..!!

Then Saturday.. I supposed to go to the Language Course center, but I overslept.. lazy me :P then in the evening I went to the gym with my Aunt.. was there for around 2 hours and then we left for the mall (the very same mall I went the day before).. had dinner there, bought some bread for tomorrow's breakfast, and then went home.. and as usual, I got sick for going out at nite.. allergic to night air? hehe..

Sunday! My Aunt got free tickets from her boss to watch The Disabled People's Arts Performance Troupe.. it was a fantastic, marvelous, amazing, totally cool show!!! especially the bodysattva by the hearing impaired.. My bro should be the one who watched it, not me.. so that he could see how people like him can also dance beautifully along with the music!! I should have brought camera with me.. stupid me.. I didnt know where we were going and I waited till we were in the car to ask my Aunt.. hhh.. I tried to take a picture using my cell.. but the resolution just not good enough and all it can catch just the glow of their clothes.. catchy yellowish gold.. :P I couldnt find the pictures from the internet too.. I guess I'd scan the brochure once I get home today.. the 7 visually impaired show was really cool too, one of them played piano, while the other 6 played different kinds of chinese traditional instruments.. soooooooooooo greeeaaaaaaatttt!!!! pictures comiiinngg...

Anyway.. this morning I got up late (again!).. it rained since nite and 6AM was still dark and dark made me sleepy.. then I got tummy ache just before I headed to my car hehe.. :P and as usual, the rain causes traffic jam.. it took me 1 1/2 hours this morning to get to the office and without a doubt, I was late for 1/2 hour.. *sigh* ... buuuuuuut.. my computer got a new memory now (512 MB).. the technical manager installed it while I was still stuck among cars.. hehehe :D it's faster again! :D

Healthy Chili

Do u know that eating chillies makes u healthy? I just read in a mag yesterday about this.. sure I heard about chillies smooth ur skin, but I found out lots more yesterday!

Here, in Indonesia, most of our food contains chillies. Yup, we looooooooovvveeee spicy food hahaha.. :D scientists lately confirmed that chillies can make evil (disease) away from our body. In fact, chillies have vitamins in them, take paprikas, they r rich of vitamin C, while red chillies contain betakaroten and bioflavonoid. Here goes chillies:

!They Do Not Cause Tummy Ache!
Paul Bosland, PhD from The Chili Pepper Institute in New Mexico State University, USA, said that the antimicrobial capsaicin in chillies controls the growth of bad bacteries in our intestines (Uhm.. I think paprikas doesnt count here, since it is not spicy, it doesnt contain capsaicin..). The capsaicin also stimulates tissues inside our stomach, widens the blood vessels, and fixes blood flow too, to prevent us from irritation.
Chillies cures metabolism problem too (I go yay for that!!!). Food that goes in will be processed soon to give us energy, and that's good news for those who want to lose some weight. \(^o^)/ (another yay!!!) See, they do not cause tummy ache, 'cept if u eat too much of them! :P too much of something just brings u troubles..

!They Prevent Cancer!
Scientists in Pittsburgh Univ found that capsaicin makes cancer cells destroy themselves without affecting any healthy cells. Capsaicin is even believed could help in the process of cancer medication in the future.

!Chili-Making Slaves!
Chillies is very important when talking about Indonesian dishes. It is important in my home too, as what my cousin often says, "eating without chillies just aint eating!". They r very important that a long time ago, when Indonesia was still under the Dutch, there are slaves whose task was to make chili sauce. They work in the Dutch Lords house, who married an Indonesian. The tastier it is, the more expensive the slave's price.

!Why We Crave for Chillies!
Even though our lips feels like burnt, tears coming out of our eyes, then running nose and smelly sweat, or even swollen lips (that's me!) when we eat chillies, we just keep wanting them!! why??? Chillies are addictive, when capsaicin do the job (burning our mouth), our tongue tissues would send a hurt-signal to the brain. The brain, in order to protect the body, would produce endorphin, giving a feel of pleasure and comfy. The spicier the food is, the more endorphin would be produced, the happier u would be.

!A Friend for Our Heart!
Capsaicin, the one who makes chillies taste like chillies :P, has the ability to reduce cholesterol and blood pressure, which means, the risk of stroke and heart attack is also reduced. Capsaicin is also anticoagulant: prevents coagulation, stops blood from clotting. A research was conducted in Thailand, where they check people's blood after eating a bowl of Spicy Thai Noodle. Their blood circulation way much better for 30 minutes and that's what the scientists believe that eating spicy food makes tromboembolism is very rare in Thailand.

!Reliever!
Chillies have mucokinetic effect which clears slime (Indonesian: lendir) such as mucus. The spicy taste of chillies stimulate the tissues to produce liquid in mouth, throat, and lungs. This liquid helps to thined slime, so that it is easier to let it out. Sooooo... when u got flu, eat something spicy, even just temporary but ur nose would feel better.. hehe..

!Extinguish the Chili-Fire!
Now u dont have to worry about eating chillies for I got the recipe to handle the effect :D (of course from the mag!) U can drink either milk or yoghurt. This trick is said to be one of the most effective ways to cool ur tongue. In milk, or any dairy product, there is a substance called casein, which acts like a detergent that washes capsaicin from receptor nerve in our mouth, so that the spicy and hot taste would abate.

Translated from: Fit April 2006

Picky PC

Hellooooooooooo..!!

I'm posting using a new computer now.. hehe.. well, not exactly new, it was my senior's.. he got the brand new computer and I got his \(^o^)/ This is so much better than my previous one.. why??

My previous computer was under Pentium 3 processor, with 40G harddisk capacity and only 128 MB of RAM.. it was irritatingly slow!! especially since I'm using it for programming.. with those SQL Server, Visual Studio 2005, Java, etc. installed, I can only operate ONE application at a time, if it was VS.. especially when I was debugging the program.. ok ok so maybe not only one application.. I can run winamp too.. but then the song would go like this "I.. I.. kn.. kno..know..ow.." :P

So yesterday, my senior has cleaned this cpu (his ex) and reinstalled WinXP for me :D .. it had Pentium 4 processor, 60G harddisk capacity (changed it with 80G one) and 256 MB of RAM.. one of the managers said that the RAM still kinda slow for programming but I think I wont even feel it slow since I just moved from 128MB RAM hehe.. and so after that I moved the data from my previous one to this one.. And this morning I was set! At least that was what I thought.. Cos when I just connected the new cpu with my old monitor n keyboard n mouse.. suddenly it just didnt work!!

I was kinda panicked, thought I touched something inside and so it was broken.. huaaaaa... and then my other senior helped me.. and he found the problem!!! hahaha :D know what? turned out that this CPU was very picky!! it dun want my old keyboard, it demanded a new one, the pretty pretty one!! *sigh* when we plugged in the keyboard, it wont turn on.. and when we plugged it off, it would!! and so one of the managers gave me a new keyboard with matching mouse too \(^o^)/

Then another problem came up.. plugged but said unplugged LAN cable.. solved! .. creating new email identity in Outlook Express.. still not solved yet.. why? I forgot the mail server name \(^o^)/ .. it kept prompting me for username and password.. and I'm very sure that I typed them right.. so it must be the server name.. and the only senior who knows it didnt come to work today.. hehehe.. and it was the webmaster's mail!! huaaaa.. what if one the clients got probleeeeeemmm???!! OMG!!! I'm so messed up.. *sigh*

I cant start working today too on my project.. cos we dun have the SQL installation cd rite now in sight :P .. but I still gotta go.. havta install Visual Studio 2005 here.. it's 12.02 pm and I'm still not set! :( hungry...

American Idol

A few days back, my dad subscribed to Astro and we get 70+ channels from around the world for Rp.150.000,- a month.. that's around USD16.. kinda worth it, I'd say.. we didnt get HBO, CCTV4, etc. coz we have to pay extra fees for them.. it dun really matter since cartoon network, AXN, Star World, MTV, [V], E! are included in the package.. \(^o^)/ I can now watch Powerpuff Girls again!!!

2 days ago I just found out that Star World broadcasts American Idol over satellite.. so I dun have to wait till Saturday (on local TV --> RCTI) to watch it.. haha.. I dun usually watch American Idol, in fact, I wasnt interested at all in it.. but dunno why.. I've been watching this season's auditions and I just grew to like it.. I mean the contestants can really sing!! that goes for Indonesian Idol too.. but not for AFI (a singing competition too, but sappy one..)

So anyway.. as I watched thru it, when Kevin Covais sang, I figured out why I dun really like him hehe.. he kinda looks like Chicken Little.. and since I dun really like Chicken Little, there goes my conclusion :P Then I remembered that Simon once said that one of the ex-contestants, Gedeon McKinney, looks like Chip 'n Dale.. lol.. funny how people looks like cartoon characters.. I mean, funny in positive way :D .. then I remembered how my friend said I look like Snoopy's friend (edited: he just called me that again last night over the phone!).. *sigh* :P



urgh.. I'm having trouble putting picture here in Blogger.. I'll add some later..


edited on March 24, 2006
Last night this Kevin Covais left American Idol.. and I just found out that they've been calling him chicken little too.. hehe.. guess I was late :P a bit slow-minded maybe :D ..

Still talking about American Idol, I'm going for Chris, Katharine, and maybe Mandisa (she's getting better each day!).. Hope one of them wins.. or maybe the 3 of them hehe...



Okaaaaaaayyy.. I'm off to write a new post! :D

Today is GREAT!!!

\(^o^)/ I guess it's gonna be a good day.. I started the day in a good way and a good feeling too \(^o^)/ .. I came half an hour early to the office.. usually I crazily drive my car, speeding n move from one lane to the other along d way.. and I usually arrive around a minute before or after the work start-hour hehe.. :D but not today!! I was pretty calm back there :D goodie goodie..

Started my day with a smile too :D God is really great.. amazing how a mom has emotional connection with her daughter.. Just when I need her most, she's there.. :D I remembered the last time I was away for school.. and then I fell sick.. suddenly she called me (she never calls on weekdays) and asked how I was doing, whether I was okay.. just the right time hehe.. :D

and last nite!! my mom sms-ed me and asked about that problem I have.. but I couldnt tell her over sms.. so I got online and chatted with my sister (my mom's visiting my sis till May) via Yahoo! Messenger (this is an advertisement :D) ... and I told her all about it.. let's just say.. I poured my heart out.. glad to know that she supported me and gave me some encouragement.. and I felt much relieved.. and then I gave her the task to pass it to my mom.. haha.. so she got my permission to gossip about me.. Anyway, thank you for the best sister in the whole world!! \(^o^)/ love u.. oh we gossiped about our brother too.. and he didnt even know it.. he was asleep.. MUHAHAHAHAHAHAHA *evil laugh*

Ok it's 2 minutes left till work.. I gotta get ready now.. my senior just gave me a new task to do.. which is good! :D .. it is much much better than doing nothing at all!! \(^o^)/

Have a nice day all!! Hope ur morning started off nicely.. and hope the rest of the day will get even better.. \(^o^)/

I Want My Mommm!!

I miss my moooooommmmm!! huaaaaaaaaaaa..uwaaa..waaa..waaaaa....

She's been gone for more than a month now (since Feb 16th) and it's still more than a month too till she gets home (May 1st) huaaaaaa waaaa uwaaaa waaa... Though actually, I only get to see her at night everyday if she's here, that's when I got off from work.. still with no-one here to scold me, my life just aint my life!! :( know what I mean? and lately, i'm not feeling well.. emotionally.. and I need to talk to her.. I talked to some of my friends but I dunno.. I know I made the right decision, and it's my life, so I got to choose, right? Some of my friends told me that it is right and some of them said I have to rethink about it, though I very much know I'm not gonna change my mind.. I need someone to support me and I think she would, I need her to.. I just wanna talk heart to heart with my mom.. I want my mom, I want my mom, I want my mommm!!! Please come home soon!!

Then yesterday night, my mom's friend's daughter got married, and since my mom couldnt be there, I had to take her place n attend the party.. it was kinda nice, though I had what-to-wear crisis earlier.. why??? remember me getting sun-burnt?? my arms look really really ugly right now, skin peeling off.. which means, i only can wear long-sleeves.. and I dun have any!!! lucky i just bought a shirt the nite before, well it helped a lot!! hehe..

Anyway, I finished my work for the day.. hahaha.. and it just feels good!! I mean, at first, I have no confidence at all making the program, I understand nothing about it, but today I sat like a very sweet girl.. usually I walk back n forth to the loo or to get water.. but today.. I just sat here and did the task (sometimes stared blankly at the monitor too) :D .. but I did it!!! MUHAHAHAHAHA... well, uhm my senior is gonna check on it later.. so it's not really finished.. :P

And I just remember now that I do have another program to make.. my mind is kinda blank today.. said to myself "ok, i need to change that code" ... and when I clicked on the window.. suddenly it turned to "what did i say i should do just now?" ... *sigh*...

I guess I need to refresh my mind and sooooooooooo... it's time to go home now :D Good Evening!! :D

Outing 2006

Last weekend was so much fun!!! tiring but fun!!! \(^o^)/

Went on a camping trip with the office from Friday till Sunday.. we left on Friday nite (cos we had to work first as usual) and arrived at the site around something past 10, were late for 2 hours (traffic jam.. in Jakarta, as always) and so we only sat a while for a welcome briefing then went right away to take a shower and sleep.. Woke up at 5.30 AM the next day and did some exercise.. haha it's been ages since the last time we did sport, running down the hill was a piece of cake, but then running back up left us panting for air.. :P Took shower before we had some breakfast and start the activities of the day.. first off is Rope Challenge (basic level)... I wasnt feeling confident at all, neither were some of my friends.. but guess what? we actually finished the challenge.. all of us!! it was kinda scary.. but fun!! :D just hate the bee that was bugging me while I was up there (I have bee-phobia, cos it stung me once for no reason!!).. and I was terrified at the last step, when we supposed to jump off the log.. hhh.. see, I could only hold my breath, couldnt scream for no reason.. the voice just stuck in my throat.. it happens too everytime I'm on a rollercoaster ride.. *sigh* Glad that I could do it to the end and get my piece of sweet watermelon.. hahaha.. Well, the first challenge was done! We skipped 2nd challenge - medium level and 3rd challenge - advance level cos of the rain (it's gonna be slippery up there and the challenge was far harder).. we went straight to the last challenge.. which is the Flying Fox.. sliding from a 18m high tree.. or I think it was higher (cos I was shaking and hurt my hand trying to climb it).. long waiting but it was fuuuuuuuuuunnn!!! My boss was supposed to wait at the end of the line to take pics but he didnt take many photos there, out of battery.. hiks.. I didnt bring camera, so I just picked photos from my friends' and lucky some of them managed to capture some.. oh I was terrified too, cos there was a wall at the end of the line.. I know that the slide will stop at the right moment.. but I just.. uhm.. kept imagining that I would slam into that wall.. BANG!!! I'm so feeling stupid.. Finished the challenges and we took some rest, waited for the rain to stop, took shower, and had dinner... at nite, we had a campfire.. not for long.. why??? IT RAINED AGAIN!!! annoying isnt it? but we got the chance to have a door prize and I got an electric water kettle.. lucky me.. haha.. :D We spent the 2nd day tracking and tea-walking... tiring and hot.. and know what? I forgot to put on sun lotion!!! *sigh* we were supposed to have a game in the swimming pool, but I dunno why they cancelled it.. maybe cos many of friends got sick from the day before (blame it on the weatherman!) .. and so we went home on Sunday noon.. exhausted and burnt red.. haha..

Still I had to go on a wedding party along with my Dad n Bro right after I reached home.. was gonna wear a short sleeves when I looked at the mirror and realize that my arms are red.. hahaha.. so I went for long sleeves :P and now my arms hurttttttttt..!!! my cheeks too!!! huaaaaaaaaa......

Anyway, it was such an experience, first time for me.. this event was the second time for the office.. the first time was in 2001 (of course, I wasnt there, only been working here for 1 1/2 months now) ... I heard that my bosses are planning to do this kind of activity again.. dunno when.. but it's gonna be... RAFTING!! love it!! wish I would be there :D ...

I'm gonna have lunch now.. my tummy is growling..

Anger Management

I HAVE NONE!!! SO...

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THAT'S 100 TIMES FOR YOU!!!

Fart?!

\(^o^)/

Ever pull someone's finger and hear a weird noise come out of his or her butt?

Ever sit in a tub of water and see bubbles come out of your hiney?

This strange noise and vibrating sensation that came from your butt is most likely caused by a fart.

A fart is a combination of gases (nitrogen, carbon dioxide, oxygen, methane, and hydrogen sulfide) that travels from a person's stomach to their anus. When a person swallows too much air or eats foods that the human digestive system cannot digest easily gas becomes trapped in his/her stomach. The only way for this excess gas to exit the body is through the anus.

The gas that makes your farts stink is the hydrogen sulfide gas. This gas contains sulfur which causes farts to have a smelly odor. The more sulfur rich your diet, the more your farts will stink. Some foods that cause really smelly farts include: beans, cabbage, cheese, soda, and eggs.

A scientific name for a fart is flatus or flatulence.

The word fart is just one of many different terms used to describe the release of gasses from the human body. Other popular names for farts or farting include: gassers, stinkers, air biscuits, bombers, barking spiders, rotten eggs, and wet ones. You can pass gas, break wind, blast, beef, poof, rip one, let one fly, step on a duck, and cut the cheese.

Farts can be stinky, wet, loud, or silent but deadly. Pee-eeew!!!

Did you know?

• On the average, a healthy person farts 16 times a day.


• Hey guys, don't be fooled by girls who tell you that they never fart. Everyone farts, including girls. In fact, females fart just as much as males.


• Many animals fart too. Cats, dogs, and cows. Elephants fart the most.


• People fart the most in their sleep.


• Farts that contain a large amount of methane & hydrogen can be flammable.

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Source: Cool Quiz

Dont u say that u never fart OK? I know u do!! :D MUHAHAHAHAHA..

What Date is Today?

YUUUUUUUUUPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!! TAKE A LOOK AT TODAY'S DATE!!! Know what today is? d'ya know??? d'ya know??????????

IT'S MY MOM'S BIRTHDAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYY!!! hahaha.. :D but she's not here currently.. away till May 1st.. hiks.. please remind me to call her tonite.. hehe.. this time is gonna be different.. we used to give her a surprise.. *although she can always guess from the way we act that day* hehehe..

Anyway... Happy Birthday to the prettiest, loveliest, best even bestest MOM in the whole world!!! :D Love u Mom.. and miss u too!!! :( GBU 24/7 \(^o^)/

World's #1 Guy

He may not be THE world's #1 guy.. but he is definitely my world's :D hehe.. I have a list of world's #1 man, world's #1 guy, world's #1 lady, world's #1 girl (or maybe I should call her a woman now), and even world's #1 baby.. hehehehe.. maybe I'll have more categories later in the future.. For now, I'm gonna write about my world's #1 guy..

On the day he was born, everyone was extremely happy.. He's his parents' first (and only) son, his sisters' first (and only) brother, his grandparents' first grandson.. of course everyone was in joy!!! \(^o^)/ He was big for a baby and he was healthy too, but it wasnt until a few days later, when it was difficult for him to breathe and the doctor said it was katalepsi ("kejang".. ok so I dunno the English word for it).. so the doctor gave him anti-biotic (which I know now that it should NOT be given to babies!!!) But then.. they found out that it wasnt katalepsi at all, instead he got a hole in his heart, his clean blood mixed with his dirty blood and that makes him hard to breathe..

They moved him to another hospital and put him in the ICU.. he was dying.. the joy turned into deep sadness.. they tried everything they could and finally a miracle came and saved his life.. they could take him home.. but not for long.. they had to take him back to the hospital to check his hearing.. Remember the antibiotic? well it DID its job, it made him deaf.. His parents went home in tears.. sue the doctor? would it do any good? what's been done is done.. right? sueing the doctor wouldnt give him his hearing back..

Other children could hear their parents' voice.. listen to their parents' lullabies or stories.. sing songs.. but he couldnt.. he had to learn sign language very early and went to school at the age of 2.. spent a year there or more and then he moved to a much better school.. where they taught him to actually speak.. they said "u cant hear, but u can talk! so dont use sign language!" .. and that was where he learned how to read lips.. *good things about being able to read lips: u can know what people are talking about from afar.. good for gossipers ei?* ..Anyway.. he grew as a very thin boy.. should I say skinny.. he cant run and play like any other children cos of his heart.. it tired him easily and his skin turned blue when it happened..

When he was 4, his parents decided that it was time for him to have a heart surgery.. so they took him to Australia (where the doctors are most trustworthy than they are here!).. the operation was successful and it changed him.. he can run, he can play, and he can do sports.. that skinny boy just disappeared in time!!

He turns out to be a kind-hearted, intelligent, tall, handsome, caring person, not so gentleman but I'd still say he is, and he's a good cook too.. he's just the kind of person that everyone would like!! he's the nicest guy I've ever known.. I'm telling you HE IS!!! call me a brother complex, I dun mind.. maybe I am.. :P he, my brother, is sooooo friendly, if u see him, then u'd (almost) always see a smile on his face.. even to people who have hurt him.. he's so forgiving.. I'm just worried bad people would use him.. :(

He likes little children and he takes care of them whenever they're around.. he holds his mom's or sisters' hands when they walk alone.. he's funny too.. very very funny.. negative things? uhm.. lemme think.. he's kinda lazy to study, though he's bright in maths and science.. and he likes to gossip.. and haha u might say he was born to be a playa, or let's just say he was born with charm \(^o^)/ many girls like him.. but he seems to have a problem with girls lately.. he moved to a normal school *see, he's bright! :D even though he cant hear but he was one of his class top ten students!!* .. he told me once that normal girls mostly dun want to be with him.. he was very sad at that moment.. i know it would be hard for him to have a good-hearted girlfriend.. even if the girl was okay with this, what about the parents? Well as you know, parents always question their son/daughter's girl/boyfriend.. it's gonna be tough, u know, with his condition.. and even when it's all good.. what about his brother-complex-sister (me)? it's gonna be a problem for his future-girlfriend/s.. MUHAHAHAHAHAHA..

My friend told me once that my brother's life is still stable rite now.. meaning, everyone is nice to him, he's confident.. but there's gonna be times when he feels down.. when people look down on him.. when he finally realizes that the world is aint fair.. especially in his career and love life.. people tries to bring others down.. even friends compete.. will he be strong by then? he'll need someone to turn to.. especially his family... and will we be strong by then? will I be? I pray so..

Cars That Can Fly

hahaha yup!! I'm dreaming of those!!! See, I was 1 minute late for work.. I left earlier cos I had to go to the gas station first.. and I was supposed to arrive at the same time I did yesterday.. turned out this morning's traffic wasnt friendly at all!! I dunno why but it was far more crowded than yesterday.. So maybe 1 minute dun mean too much, but my work was actually not more than 20 mins away from home, and it took me more than an hour to get there.. even it took me 3 hours once!!

I hate this kind of days.. everytime I'm stuck there in the middle of pollution and stress and car horns and heat, I always wish that I have a flying car.. just like the movie "Flubber" hehehe.. No, I dun want all people have it.. just my family!! Why? cos if everyone hav this kind of cars then there'd be traffic jam up there too.. so maybe I should make it my own.. but I dun have the ability, it's not my line of work.. maybe if I got very very rich, I'd ask the expert invent it for me.. but would that be illegal here in this country? *haha so i laugh at my own imagination*

or maybe a car that has long stretchable legs would do good too :D u know kinda like Inspector Gadget.. but it's a car.. does Inspector Gadget has a car? he does, doesnt he? and does his car have those legs? If yup, then I would want his car!! very very much!!! then I would just walk past other cars with my evil laugh.. MUHAHAHAHAHAHAHA... Goodbye traffic jam...!! Oh, I just love the feeling.. :D

When is it gonna come true? maybe in year 5000 and I definitely would be dead by then.. *sigh*

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PS: I just realized that I havent been using Maiandra GD after all.. why? Cos I thought the name was Maigandra GD.. muhahahaha.. and I was stupid enough not to realize that the font has always been the same.. anyway, I wrote this post with it.. is it kinda hard to read?

God Will Make A Way

I dunno what to write today.. cos I dun think much today.. Well, except when I was working.. :D but it's done now.. *unless if my senior tomorrow want me to add something more..* anyway.. now i feel peace in my mind.. hehe.. which is kinda rare.. and I got this song kept playing in me.. :D

--- God Will Make A Way ---

God will make a way
When there seems to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for me

He will be my guide
Hold me closely to His side
With love and strength for each new day
He will make a way
He will make a way

By a roadway in the wilderness, He'll lead me
And rivers in the desert will I see
Heaven and earth will fade
But His word will still remain
And He will do something new today

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and He ease my mind too \(^o^)/
Hope you feel it too.. anyone of youz.. :D
Well, unconsciously I've been singing this song till yesterday.. or maybe few days before.. and I realized it when my cousin ask me about that song.. she said I sang it during shower and breakfast.. hehe.. so I guess I've been starting these few days with a smile and this song \(^o^)/
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5 Simple Rules 2 B Happy

As I went thru my old stuff today, I found some of my print out emails.. I used to stick them up on my bedroom wall just cos they're full of beautiful words and meaningful too.. I'll post one for youz.. :D some of youz might have seen it before.. I, myself, even read it hundred times before.. over and over.. hehe..

--- FIVE SIMPLE RULES TO BE HAPPY ---

God didnt promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow, sun without rain, but God did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears and light for the way.

Disappointments are like road humps, they slow you down a bit, but you enjoy the smooth road afterwards. Dont stay on the humps too long. MOVE ON!!

When you feel down because you didnt get what you want, just sit tight and be happy, because God is thinking of something better to give you.

When something happens to you, good or bad, consider what it means. There's a purpose to life's events, to teach you how to laugh more or not to cry too hard.

You cant make someone love you, all you can do is be someone who can be loved, the rest is up to the person your worth.

The measure of love is when you love without measure. In life there are very rare chances that you'll meet the person you love and loves you in return. So once you have it, dont ever let go. The chance might never come your way again.

It's better to lose your pride to the one you love, than to lose the one you love because of pride. We spend too much time looking for the right person to love or finding fault with those we already love, when instead we should be perfecting the love we give.

When you truly care for someone, you dont look for faults, you dont look for answers, you dont look for mistakes. INSTEAD, you fight the mistakes, you accept the faults, and you overlook the excuses.

Never abandon an old friend. You will never find one who can take his place. Friendship is like wine, it gets better as it grows older.

REMEMBER THE FIVE SIMPLE RULES TO BE HAPPY:
1. FREE YOUR HEART FROM HATRED
2. FREE YOUR MIND FROM WORRIES
3. LIVE SIMPLY
4. GIVE MORE
5. EXPECT LESS

No one can go back and make a brand new start. Anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending.

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Well, guess I know now why I havent been happy lately.. I've been expecting too much and worrying about small stuff very often.. and because of that, life just seemed so complicated..!! *sigh*

Life Goes On

So I went to the church last nite as planned.. but my mind wasnt cooperating.. I was just sitting there, listening to the first reading.. and I dunno why but I suddenly remembered my Dad and kept thinking about him for half way thru the mass.. He hasnt been feeling well lately, although it's just a fever.. but it made me realize as I watch him.. that he now looks much older and those lines in his face.. I suddenly can see his tired face.. kinda makes me wanna cry.. he's been working hard all of his life for the family.. and what do I have in return?

And my mom.. I sometimes argue with her.. (this is still considered good, remembering how often I used to do that.. ALMOST ALWAYS!) .. it's getting better right? .. Anyway, I used to stare at her teenage-picture.. so different.. she's not as strong as she used to be.. she gets tired easily lately.. but she's now visiting my sister.. 24 hours flight away.. for 2 months!! She's fine there.. happy playing with grandson for sure hehe.. I just hope she wont get too tired..

Then I think about death.. of course I know people gets old and God will call us back to His place one day.. but thinking about it really scares me off.. thinking about losing my parents or any of my loved ones.. I'm not ready for that.. knowing that I still count on them in almost everything.. It is bad since I'm all grown up now physically, but still a child inside.. right? .. I remember when my Dad's mom died.. that was the first time and the only time I saw my dad cried.. and then when my Mom's parents died.. my Mom cries a lot, but that time she cried like she never cried before.. they cried and I know their hearts are broken badly.. but they still tried to be strong.. they didnt lose themselves.. will I be that strong too? I'm so afraid I wont..

Sometimes I think that it'd be much nicer if I die first (egoistically thinking).. then I wonder if it do really happen.. will someone care? will someone miss me? .. well, even if anyone else doesnt, at least my family would.. and my parents.. isnt it just gonna hurt them more? so maybe it just aint fair for them.. I gotta stop my ego!!! actually I should stop thinking about this and let life be.. God knows what He's doing.. and whatever it is, it must be for the best..

Then suddenly the priest's words caught my mind.. He was preaching about what Ash Wednesday means.. Why do they draw cross out of ash on our forehead? Ash or dust is meaningless in our life.. we walk on it.. the wind easily blows it away.. and now they put it on our forehead? The priest said our forehead is where our mind is.. and the ash reminds us that we are all made from dust.. and that IS what we'll be in the end.. reminds us to keep low-profile, dont do big for the good things we do, be humble and not to look down on other people.. for we are all the same in God's eyes..

Well, my mind stopped worrying just about there.. still have many questions left unanswered but I felt enlightened already.. went home in a much better feeling.. then about 10 pm.. my house area got blackened out for around 2 hours.. these few days they gonna cut off electricity in certain areas here.. there was no air-con for a good night sleep, but it didnt matter to me, I felt good and so I was asleep like a baby till morning hehehe.. \(^o^)/

Ash Wednesday

Yup.. today is Ash Wednesday (Rabu Abu) .. have u gone to church yet? I'm going tonite.. with Siska (one of my bestfriends plus neighbor too) ... After so long time I havent been to church, I kinda miss it, and maybe it's the key to calm my mind.. not maybe.. it definitely is..!!

Then talking about Ash Wednesday.. I'm thinking about Puasa n Pantang.. here is my list:

No Snacks

No Biting Nails

No Meat

No Teasing People

No Shouting

It's a bit much.. dunno if I can make it.. haha.. u think?

Java Jazz Festival 2006

Pada tau gak kalo tanggal 3-5 Maret 2006 ini bakalan ada Java Jazz Festival di Jakarta? tepatnya di Jakarta Convention Center (JCC) ... Persembahan dari Dji Sam Soe..

Sebenernya gw dah liat iklannya sejak lama sih.. sejak bulan Januari kalo gak salah.. trus pake ada acara preview nya dulu segala.. ada James Brown, ada Dave Koz, ada Incognito, ada Brand New Heavies, ada Mezzoforte, ada Earth Wind & Fire, ada Eric Benet, dll.. n bukan cuma artis luar kok.. artis indo juga ada.. misalnya Mocca, Bali Lounge, Blue Savana, Glenn, Marcell, Shakila, Tangga, banyak deh!!! lebih lengkapnya liat sendiri deh di sitenya: JJF 2006.. gw sih nonton pas Earth Wind & Fire ama Brand New Heavies nyanyi tuh.. enaaaaaaaaaaakkkkkkkk...

Nah.. gara2 itu deh makanya gw kepingiiiiinnn banget nonton tuh acara... abis lagunya enak2 sih.. artisnya juga bagus2 tuh.. lokasinya juga deket pula dari rumah gw.. jalan kaki juga bisa.. hiks.. tapi entah napa, niat gw cuma sampe situ.. kayaknya ngebayangin gw ada di tengah2 konser.. bisa2 malah jadi pusing ngeliat orang banyak banget gitu.. *sensitif ama keramean.. payah deh gw..* ... eh tapi kalo konser jazz itu duduk yah? kalo duduk sih masih mendingan.. another reason for me not going.. I HATE TO GO ALONE... and emang gak ada yang bisa nemenin gw nih.. di keluarga gw gak ada deh yang demen banget ama jazz.. mama suka sih, tapi itu juga suka gara2 kebiasaan tiap hari denger gw stel lagu2 jazz.. kalo papa, lebih prefer blues.. n adek gw, kayaknya sih lebih prefer kalo penyanyinya cantik.. hhh... temen2? sepertinya jarang deh temen2 gw yang suka ama jazz... right guys? *kasian deh nike..*

Well.. kata manajer gw.. bentar lagi Lionel Richie juga bakalan dateng yah? acaranya diadain ama A-Mild ... seneng sih.. tapi kayaknya gw gak terlalu niat buat nontonnya.. tapi kalo Jamie Cullum yang dateng, gw pasti niat banget mao nonton..!! kayaknya itu jadi keharusan deh.. kalo perlu, paksain siapa gitu buat nemenin gw.. hehehe..